"I'm Not Supposed to Be Here" by: Randy Boude

[Randy Boude]

I can’t make out what you’re sayin
Are you screamin are you prayin
I can only hear the voices in my head
Follow instructions to the letter
And they say things will get better
Yeah they tell me I’m alive but I feel dead


I see people with no faces
But I don’t know what this place is
I just feel inside that I’ve been here before
Though they’re walkin all around me
Why hasn’t anybody found me
Don’t know what I missed or what I’m lookin for


(chorus)

What if I built a time machine
I could go back to me
and take another swing
Maybe I’d see my life more clear
The only thing I know right now
Is that I’m not supposed to be here
No I’m not supposed to be here….


This is not life as I had planned it
And sometimes I can barely stand it
But a baby has a way of changing plans
When those little eyes look to you
And you know she see’s right through you
All you want to do is hold her little hand


I know sometimes I’m still confused
And a little bit abused
But I don’t have to look too far to see
I’m not getting any younger
And the need to feed that hunger
Still searching just to find the perfect me…


(chorus)

What if I built a time machine
Would I find reality
And would I really want to change anything
Maybe I’d see my life more clear
The only thing I know right now
Is that I’m not supposed to be here
I know I’m not supposed to be here….


I can’t make out what you’re sayin
Are you screamin are you prayin…….